Reproach

I shall keep this distance, I shall stay away
I shall not get closer, lead my heart astray

If I be cold, well I readily accept
If I be rude, well I care much less
For my cold heart keeps me breathing
And my rude tongue, me aloof
Both had failed to realize
So much you could do

My heart in now in shatters
My mind in blur and daze
Let not my demeanour befool you
My life is not in place

I still do cherish my past
And still do treasure my dreams
But I still do not have you
When today is all that means