When you meditate...

When you meditate...do not try hard. The intent is to relax, so whatever you do, don't end up being more exerted at the end of the session, than before!

Both Swami Vivekananda and Sri Sri Ravi Sankar encourage letting the thoughts flow. Vivekananda compared it to a stone causing ripples in the water. Let a stone come and disturb the water, it'll just ripple away. Ravi Sankar asks us to just be "aware" of the flow of thoughts. And I believe Sadhguru suggests we watch the breath. Ravi Sankar also suggests breath as a way to control our emotions. He explained how breath is the link between emotion and mind. Remarkable! And so true!

When meditating or in prayer, do visit and your "angels". Yes, that's the term so many religions term it as. In Hinduism the religion, deities could have been introduced to serve that concept. There are angels for creation (Brahma) and learning (Saraswathi), angels for protection (Vishnu) and prosperity (Lakshmi), and angels for power (Shakthi) and renunciation towards moksha (Shiva). Visit their abodes, thank them for standing by you, through various births that you have taken. So have been so lucky to be born in this human life, which is conscious of self and consciousness of choice. Thank them, thank them all!

When meditating, realize that your true self is joyous. Realize that you are different from this body. And, over time, realize even that you are different from this mind. Which is why almost all of us do not remember our previous births. Only the impressions have carried forward, and only those whose impressions have been that strong, remember bits of their previous birth. I'm sure at a certain level of subconscious this memory exists which can be tapped for all of us, but even there this would be strong impressions that have left their mark on the soul.

Awareness, Sri Sri Ravi Sankar said, will dissolve all Karma. If you are enjoying something, keeping yourself "detached" and watching yourself enjoying, apparently the Karma will be dissolved then and there itself. Hold on to this knowledge during meditation, and try to keep awareness alive.

And the best message of all by Ravi Sankar was that, what's the use of practising meditation if you are unable to carry over that feeling even after meditation. So remember this feeling of bliss, and enjoy it even with your eyes open!

K.J. Yesudas Vs. Kishore Kumar

Dr K.J. Yesudas, the true Gana Gandharvan. The deepest, most beautiful voice music in India has ever heard. There is no doubt about that. His film-career spanned from the late 60's if I'm not wrong till even the late 00's. While his most notable but unnoticed achievement is bringing popularity to Classical music. Even yours truly can attribute to that. He continues to perform classical concerts, and due to his brand power in film, it automatically brings at least some audiences in just owing to that fact.  Yesudas has sung in almost every Indian language, although the luckiest state is the one he hailed from, Kerala. He's also been handsomely awarded by National, state and film awards for his performances and contributions. But there is a flaw...in my opinion. I think his singing lacked total immersement. I felt so most in the sentimental, romantic, or tragic songs. And also in some of the comic songs. There is a certain detachment to the the singing. You know he's singing a romantic number or a song of angst, but I give more credit to its outcome to the wonderful lyricists and equally excellent musicians of Malayalam film music. Which is also why I think he never was as great a success in other languages. Without the support of equally talented musicians, the passion in the voice, must have been caught missing. Which is where S.P. Balasubramaniam capitalized in almost every other South Indian Language.

Kishore Kumar on the other hand, was this eccentric, sometimes melancholic, and most times comic character, who seemed to be hiding a certain pain. And this pain came out, oh very vividly so, in the many sentimental, philosophical and sad songs he's sung. Like another contemporary singer Mahendra Kapoor once commented, Kishore grasped the emotion of the song very easily. And he was so talented, that he could even sing some classical songs by purely mimicking and learning from the music director. His talent was peerless as he dabbled (competently) in acting, direction, music and lyrics, although singer was what defined him. Obviously he could never have sung most Carnatic or Hindustani classicals. But the range of his songs crossed the barriers of masses and classes alike; he's sung songs of every genre. Even though his singing calibre would not have reached Mohd Rafi's. His voice though is the best Hindi film industry has heard. Kishore Kumar's best songs have come under music director R.D. Burman. A large part of the memorable songs in Kishore's collections are owing to Burman's music. Although Burman was his most ardent supporter too. According to Burman, Kishore was the best singer a music director could get. He'd mimic the song just exactly as the music director wanted it to be recited, thus giving justice to the vision of the song.

When I think back or listen to the songs sung by Yesudas and Kishore, while Yesudas' songs leave me with admiration of the singing talent, Kishore's songs touch the core of some feeling in my heart. And while this makes Yesudas hands down the Best singer according to me, Kishore will always be my favorite singer!!

Influences from WWE

WWE (World Wrestling Entertainment), which I knew most of my life as WWF (World Wrestling Federation), was something of an enigma, an inspiration for fitness, and hero-worship, when growing up in Mumbai. We used to collect post-card pictures, and make scrap books with these. We used to have card-games with these, talk about the wrestlers, imagine how matches between them would fare..all sorts of things..

I remember the top stars at the time, the early 90's used to be Bret "The Hitman" Hart, The Undertaker, Razor Ramon..these were the heroes, or the "face" as I recently learnt is the term used within the company. And then there were the villains (heel), like Shawn Michaels, Diesel, Owen Hart, Yokozuna! I was always a big fan of Bret Hart. His wrestling style clearly showed how he stuck to the basics. No high-flying moves, focus on the opponent's weaknesses, and never give up. Kind of how I am too. I'm sure he was a boring superstar..

After I think the 9th standard, I lost touch of WWF, and crucial career-defining studies (at least in India) of Std 10th and 12th took over. I remember the last match being Bret Hart vs Shawn Michaels in WrestleMania '94, which he controversially lost. I watched this match with my favorite cousin, Biju Ettan. Throughout this era though, it was discussed but mostly agreed upon that the matches were not anyway rigged. There were some rules to follow, but the outcome is totally like a sport!

When I got back to watching Wrestling, in around '99, I was disappointed to see Hitman had been turned heel. There is an extended documentary where even he explains he had a lot of concerns about this move by the company. I saw Stone Cold Steve Austin win King-of-the-Ring. A bad guy with no respect but a lot of guts. I hated him when promos revealed how he was targetting the "old generation" that Hitman reflected, and the intense rivalry between them. I loved seeing how Hitman beat him in that match. And yet, since Stone Cold never gave up, he won my and the fans' respect.

I thought I was done with WWF after this, as Hitman's era seemed to have ended, but the WWE (which it was known as by then) had a real surprise storyline up their sleeve. The Stone Cold vs. Vince McMohan the boss was a damn good entertainer! Mind you, even at this phase I had no idea all these are cooked up storylines. And I applauded how Stone Cold won the championship against all odds from the boss, dumped all norms, and stayed himself all through. He defended the belt against the best contenders, the Undertaker, Kane, Mick Foley, The Rock. But sometime in between, Engineering studies got hectic, and I let go.

And since then, the guts of Stone Cold and resilience of the Hit Man have always stayed as cherished inspirations.

I recently found out how these are all storylines, including that entire fights are choreographed. I still am amazed how they do it...
But with that understanding though, I might never go back into it the way it was back in the 90's and early '00s.

But from a fan who really learnt a lot about inspirational qualities in life from examples of characters that were created, a Big Thank You to the WWE and a Bigger Salute to the Stars, the inspiring Wrestlers!!

The Road to Moksha

There was first, the search for Purpose. Two things have - perhaps partly, but surely - answered: 1) The worldly responsibilities; 2) The knowledge that Maya is like a game.  For I see that in my mind, the restlessness of a search is gone.

As knowledge grew, I'm realizing that this is, and will not be, our first visit here. That we never really lose our loved ones. We all are but one. And we keep meeting in subsequent births. This has helped, the knowledge from various aspects, the scientific (the book "Many Lives, Many Masters"), and the spiritual (talks and material from "Art of Living" and the Vedic material on the internet). It has helped to drop the fear of death, to have no regrets, and to as much possible per current capability, perceive the nature of life. It will all come around...

There is also a golden "method" I now have in hand, thanks to the "Art of Living" talks. To stay in the "Mode of Awareness". Not just when meditating, but in every activity of life. Sri Sri Ravi Sankar has explained, that it is this that helps dissolve the Karmic influences. Obviously there is much, much room for improvement for me. I'll do my best. Yoga and my attempts to reduce the need for sleep have helped. For deeper meditation, even though my office workload, and illnessess while the body builds immunity to the Bangalore weather, have delayed. But Adi Sankaracharya's point that Yoga and Meditation in itself do not help achieve Moksha, but indirectly help in creating the mental state to achieve it, have been both an insightful point, and an introspective one on how long this journey could be.

Or maybe not! As I write this, I'm thinking, I agree with Adi Sankaracharya based on two experiences: 1) Even great Yoga acharya's are known for sexual scandals, and not really directly achievers of Moksha. In itself, there is nothing wrong in sexual conduct and I'm not attempting to be judgemental about it. It's like my experience with artistes. When you hear them talk, when you learn their thoughts, you realize that no matter how great they are in their fields, be it music or film or in this case Yoga, their spiritual development has not hand-in-hand. So it takes something else.. 2) Sri Sri Ravi Sankar's exhortions that there is nothing like someday, suddenly, Enlightenment will come from somewhere. All the sadhana is like removing husk from the grain. What we are to achieve, already exists within. In this aspect, the insightful book "Siddhartha" also helped. Denying oneself will not help us "realize". Accepting all is what helps.

Among Vedic purusharthas, is also mentioned the goal of "Moksha". That it's not akin to running away from the worldly life. It's akin to how children love their small toys, and find their ultimate joy in it. While as adults we grow over it. It this this mode of realizing what the true nature of everything is, that helps their interactions with us in the world does not add up to Karmic bindings, be it good or bad! Foremost thing is to realize and accept, that everything, absolutely everything that's happening to us, is nobody else's fault, or even credit. It's the adding up of our own Karma. Difficult to realize, but one must also strive to achieve complete harmony and balance in all four purusharthas, that I believe is what would be the measure of a truly successful life. Everything in Life Just Happens, one can only have the Intent!

Where do you search..

Where is pilgrimage, it is here
Where is God, he is within
What do you search, oh dear seeker
Stay a fool, dedicate and then ask

There is a learning, from proof to knowledge
But proof is mithya, so your knowledge ever-changing
Instead of asking, can I see upon opening eyes
Open your eyes, and then see for yourself

Mohanlal's characters' personal traits

The guy's a talent! A master of his craft. And one needs to credit Mohanlal in that respect. Without stifling the freedom of what his other personality traits he chooses by free will. This will only help his creativity bear more expression not feel hindered or burdened by a social and public pressure.

Recently his film "Devasuram" was playing again on TV, and I noticed how the character typically also kept a white handkerchief in hand. And guess what, I found myself uninhibitedly holding one myself after that! Years before when I saw this movie, and noticed the character had his watch tied to his right wrist, it'd peaked my curiosity and I began tying the watch to my right wrist. I must admit I still prefer it to this day, although most work-days it's still on my left hand. This character of Neelakantan, in performance and embodiment, was done really very well by Mohanlal. I'm not sure even he realizes. A masterful, well-developed character!

 In another film "Varavelpu", I'd noticed how he kept touching his shirt pocket. This is a very typical, unconscious habit of Indian men, who in days of old when money was short, used to keep some cash in their shirt pocket. It was a way of checking that the money's still there! I'd seen my father and many others doing it unconsciously at various times in the day. And this fit so well with Mohanlal's characters in the film; a man who's insecure, having started a new private bus business recently.

I'd watched "Ravanaprabhu" when I was in the Infosys Mysore Guest House. And I distinctly remember the spring in my step when going for dinner later! The action-oriented character was played with such energy, you couldn't help but grasp a little of it yourself.

Then there was "Aham" where his bearded look, and deep, intense performance made me feel he was dissolving some pain from even deep within himself. I began loving the slightly bearded look in this film and in "Nirnayam", on Mohanlal and even myself, though never really got to learning how best to keep a beard groomed. And couldn't adopt one for myself...

I'm sure there are many other such roles where Lal's personality traits in a film have caught the viewer's attention. Or maybe just the fan's attention. But these are ones that come immediately to my mind right now.

Hats off to to the master-performer.

You are Everywhere

What is lost, if I am lost
What is created, if I was born
I was here, always here
In different form, that was not seen

All in Life, has just happened
And for that the world, is not enough
I do not ask, for miracles
For You and I, and Life is one!

See See..

See see, See that idly over there
You know son, it's not idly
It's not idly, it is Moon

See see, See that laddoo shining up
You know son, it's not laddoo
It's not laddoo, it is Son

See see, See that fluffy white ice-cream
You know son, it's not ice-cream
It's not ice-cream, it is Cloud

The sky spraying shower, is called rain
This nature's tub, is the lake

When this wondrous world exists
Why do you settle, for so less
Go out, explore, live in freedom
Life's not one, you'll get many others
Yet each one's best, so live with jest!!